| Happy Birthday Me! |
[05 Jun 2006|09:13am] |
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I'm nineteen!
Godzilla Day has begun.
People at my house after six if you feel like coming. We'll have cake and icecream ;-)
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| She's so MTV |
[20 Mar 2006|01:30am] |
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Ok... so Spring Break was pretty awesome. I got a really awesome tan. I didn't do anything that was super spectacular, but I had a lot of fun doing what I did. My hair is different, and I like the new confidence it gives me. It's something that I have wanted to do for a while.
Ummm...A person I spoke with a little bit ago told me that I need to embrace the changes that are coming into my life, and I am trying to do that.
I gave up some things that I loved, but knew were wrong. I felt better about myself.
I stopped relying on some people about things. That was nice.
What I gave up came back. I didn't take it back. I'm proud.
Stone and I have reached a turning point. We both need each other, but I am closer to leaving than he is. I love our friendship. It's so easy and normal. What could be better? Life is good right now. I love him and he loves me. It's inevitable I suppose. When will the two of us realize it?
I got a new cell phone!!! That's really the best part of the whole entry!
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| Snoring... |
[02 Mar 2006|01:11am] |
I haven't been here in a long time...
So life has been alright lately. I am totally psyched about going to Mrytle Beach in May. Every day that goes by gets me that much closer. Nothing to new in the guy factor lately... Met some new ones they haven't been all that great. Just down the hall I can hear my favorite boy snoring. He's been asleep since ten, but I have been content just reading while he sleeps. I love him what can I say? Meh. My friend Lynsey met him tonight and said he wasn't anything special... I can't say that wasn't expected. I know he's nothing great, but that doesn't make anything easier.
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[21 Feb 2006|04:44pm] |
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We would have gone to get chocolate cake....This has been one of the hardest days of my life.
Happy Birthday Mommi.
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| Taking a look at life. |
[10 Dec 2005|06:10pm] |
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So...
I am sick.
I hang out with Brandon a lot now.
I am almost forgetting Stone.
I scheduled all of my classes for Spring.
I can't believe my dad and brother got motorcycles...
I hope they won't be dumb.
I can't wait for Christmas.
I should be getting a new car soon.
I hate my job. Still.
I want the new Pink Razr from Motorola.
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| Recap! |
[20 Nov 2005|08:45pm] |
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I did to much this weekend.
Friday...
I started the day off by depositing money in the bank. Nothing else really happened till I went with my cuban to see Harry Potter! It was the best one yet! Went to a party got way to drunk. Hung out with my ex's sister all night. Turns out she is the coolest chick ever. I think that I am gonna go with her to hang out with this band called SevenDust. Finally fell into bed around five....
Saturday...
Drunk sleep is the best sleep. Well it's the best sleep till you wake up to your cell phone ringing. Nine am and Stone decides he wants to go to USF football. A very hung over and tired Ashli stumbled into a shirt and jeans and somehow made it to the stadium. Best part of the game was when this fat guy spilled his beer all over Stone. By half time it was like four hundred degrees outside, and a very hungover and hot Ashli/Stone left. Slept till seven. Me, Dan, and Stone went and cleaned house at Chucky Cheese. That was awesome even though I only won like fifty tickets. We didn't get a prize because I'm holding out for the Play Dough set... Went back to Stone's and then there was a lot of people and krunkness all over again. Got home around 730 this morning.
Sunday...
Watched the game with some friends. Ate ribs once I was sure I wouldn't throw up. Now I have to go and sleep some more.
It has been a good weekend.
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| Just nice to hold hands |
[31 Oct 2005|12:00am] |
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So for anyone that reads this and knows even the tiniest bit about me then you know that the one person that has mattered to me is Dan Stone. I have waited two years! TWO FUCKING LONG HORRIBLE YEARS! He told me on Friday that we need to cut the bull shit, and that he was a dumb ass for not making him and I official a long time ago. He really honestly and truly cares about me. It was always there he was just to damn scared to see it. We have spent every moment together since, and I haven't been this happy in I don't even know how long. We went to see his mom on Saturday and I love his mom and step-dad! Stone says that they love me back, and that is all that matters to me. His Aunt Marie and Uncle Time are two of the nicest people that I have ever met. Apparently I have his Uncle Tim to thank for finally really waking Stone up. He told him he better "snatch me up" soon before some other guy did. That man will forever hold a special place in my heart. I know that me and his Aunt are going to get along great. We both have this great passion for food! His real dad and step-mom are sweethearts. Yes, he took me around all day "showing me off" to his family. Those were his words not mine. I've never been "shown off"in my ENTIRE life.
Me. Stone. Happiness. Finally!
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| Sufficient |
[25 Oct 2005|11:23pm] |
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I miss my mom so much that I can't even breathe.
I was sitting at Florida Morturary today I couldn't help but wonder how a jar of dust was supposed to be closure.
Nothing is enough. Missing her is to consuming.
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| Drippings |
[21 Oct 2005|07:08am] |
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I'm tired, but when Stone leaves in the mornings I can't sleep anymore. I keep having nightmares. He rubs my back and kisses my forehead and eventually I fall back to sleep. He tastes like Trident gum and Coca-Cola all the time. I love it. This hurricane that might be coming towards us is kind of frightening, but I think that everything will be ok. Dad's got all of these HORRIBLE hurricane shutters he's going to put up. It will be a good show he painted Finding Nemo scenes on all of them. Come by for a good laugh...::sigh::
Things are as good as they can be around the house lately. I still can't be in the living room for more than a few moments.I walk over to her dresser and touch her things almost three times a day without even thinking about it. While she was sick I prided myself on being prepared for what I knew was coming. I realize now that I was never prepared for not ever being able to hug her again. People keep saying that she is with me all the time. I just haven't been able to buy that one yet. In time I guess.
Barb, Michael, Me, and Stone are all gonna go and see a movie tonight. I am just a little bit more than excited!
<3
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[20 Oct 2005|04:49pm] |
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Mississippi Girl- Faith Hill |
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New bed.
New shoes.
New purse.
New Stone.
New life.
<3
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| Reflections |
[16 Oct 2005|09:57pm] |
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The things I'll miss
Enchilada casserole.
Vacuuming the walls.
Her smile.
Talking about my newest crush.
Hugs.
Shopping.
Coming home to her reading.
Watching chick flicks.
Eating a whole batch of brownies together.
Decorating the house for the holidays.
Most of all, just her.
The things I know
She's always with me.
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[12 Oct 2005|12:39pm] |
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My mommy passed away this morning around 8:30. I was there to hold her hand so she wasn't alone. It was hard being the only one there for it. She wasn't alone when the time came. So that's all that matters. I'll miss her.
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| Time. |
[29 Sep 2005|12:11am] |
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I am so tired of the bull shit. I finally have all my feelings out on the table and they aren't enough to make up for other people's imaturity. Yeah I went on a date with Travis! Why, the fuck should it matter to him? Dan didn't want to be my boyfriend, but go ahead and get jealous. I'm not going to wait for him to grow up. A year is long enough.
I'll still hold him though. That's fine, and I'll still want to be with him everyday. That won't go away. But no more waiting this is all I can take. I just remember everyday that I wasn't good enough.
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| To much alone |
[26 Sep 2005|12:33am] |
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My Grandma passed away today. It was weird at work I knew when it happened. I was sitting in the break room, and I just knew. This is all starting to be to much. I want someone to run their fingers through my hair, and call me baby and say everything will be alright.
Damn.
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| School starts! |
[29 Aug 2005|06:02am] |
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First day of classes! Good luck kids...I know that I'll need it to find the Psych. building!
Love you all.
My cubano got out of Orleans, and is safe in Texas. ::sigh::
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| Completely mine. |
[13 Aug 2005|08:38pm] |
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I was thinking today at work that I sort of wasted my last summer as a kid, but then I remembered Conneticut, late nights with Seth, hanging out at Val's, beach with all my ladies, and the nights spent with Dan, and I realized that it was ALL worth it. A huge thank you to the big man in the sky for making this summer worth it. I don't think that I would go back and change anything. Kudos man.
Well work sucked, and life is still the same. Holler at your girl.
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| Needs... |
[06 Aug 2005|11:10pm] |
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What a shitty day at work. It's days like these that make me realize how often I need hugging, and don't ever get it.
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| Buttered Toast and Wet Noodles. |
[27 Jul 2005|11:16pm] |
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We are all fools in love.
That little lines all but sums up everything that has been going on in my life lately...
OH yeah! They are making a new version of Pride and Prejudie and Kiera Knightly and Matthew Mcfayden are going to be Lizzy and Darcy. I can't wait. Go check out the trailer on IMDB.com! It probably won't be as amazing as the BBC version, but it looks damn good!
<3
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| No HUMIDITY! |
[11 Jul 2005|02:47pm] |
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Conneticut is a lot of fun! I am having a really good time, and I definitely see a trip back in the future. Maybe during the winter break if I can grow the balls to be THAT cold. We went to New York City and it was awesome! The place smelled like garbage, but other than that it was really neat. I went shopping just like everyone else in New York, but no fake designer bags for me. I just didn't see any that weren't horribly fake! Gretchen's mom and dad have been amazing and I realize now why I miss them as much as I do when I am down in Fl. Salem was a neat little town, and it was really sad what they did to those women. I laughed when I found out that the main reason they think that those girls were going crazy was the mold on the bread they were eating. It was the same mushroom that they make LSD with. I liked that explanation becuase I could never really understand why the girls would do something like that. I mean most of them were like only 12 and 13 years old.
Gretchen is at work so that meant that Ashli slept till one, and that was really nice. I think that we are gonna go out tonight so that will be fun. I am home in two days! I am happy,but sad too. I'm gonna miss the weather. lol
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[10 Jul 2005|10:51pm] |
Hey kids I have MySpace now. Add me just look for Ducksinarow2003@yahoo.com ok?
I'll actually update later!
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